Even as I grow, I never leave my childhood

It's been a long week, but finally I find time to post again. There is so much I wish to say at all times, but I guess since this is a blog in which there are no deadlines, no expectations, I can take my time.

Last time I told about fanfiction. So I found a meme. I'm not sure who made it, but I do not own it.

Do you read or write fanfiction?
Both.

When did you first start reading/writing fanfiction?
I started very, very early in my childhood. It's a bit scary, I remember the very first fanfic I read was on a floppy disk. A floppy disk! Now that I think of it...I feel old. The fanfic was saved onto it by my brother. Yup, my brother introduced me to fanfics. Of course, I don't think it was his intention to first introduce me to yuri...

But that might have been one of the reasons why I think I might be bisexual.

It is definitely the reason that makes me a huge fan of yaoi though.

I keep diverging...going back to the original question, I was...maybe in 3rd or 4th grade.

What was your first fandom?
The very first fic I read was in the Digimon fandom...but then I slowly expanded to Hunter X Hunter and Naruto.

First ship?
The first pairing I read was probably Yolei/Kari, but I didn't really ship them. I can't really remember my first pairing, I think it was a het one though. I think my first yaoi pairing was Kuroro/Kurapika...

What website do you use most?
Fanfiction.net, but I occasionally read from LiveJournal.

What do you think of Fanfiction.net?
I love the site. It was what introduced me to the world of fanfiction. I dislike using LJ because it is very hard to find stories, and I've never been fond of tags...(but I will try using them now since it's my own blog and I should try to organize it. Even though I guess I can say I'm a veteran on FFN after using it for so many years, I've never really participated much in the forums or communities. I like how it is becoming more and more easier to search for fics though.

What fandoms have you written in?
I have written in Naruto, Katekyo Hitman Reborn, Naruto xover Harry Potter, Death Note, DN Angel, Bakuman, and Pokemon. The first story I wrote was Hunter X Hunter, but I have already removed the story. But I guess it still counts as something I've written.
Pairings?
Pairings huh...I've always meant to write SasuNaru for a friend but I didn't. I've written the most for D18 (DinoHiba!!<3) style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; ">
Any fandoms you would like to write in?
Well...let's just say at one point I've wanted to write in every fandom I was obsessing over at that moment.

Do reviews affect how you write in any way?
To be completely honest, reviews are very important to me. I know I shouldn't, but I can't help but feel proud and elated when people review me. I know I personally dislike authors that beg for reviews, so I don't do it, but every review does make me happy. I love it more when readers ask me questions because I feel I can connect with them more and it tells me that they are actually interested in my story.

Do you use a beta?
I hadn't, but recently I just got one.

What ratings do you read/write?
I read from every rating, but I have never written anything rated M. At one point I did, but then I realize I was just being naive. I wouldn't mind writing M, but I know that despite reading so many, I'll just sound very inexperienced.

What warnings have you used on your fiction?

I've warned for OOC, randomness and other stuff. Usually pretty safe stuff. I'm not fond of character death, or torture or rape (though it gets interesting to read when I'm in the mood).

Do you have any squicks?

I have a lot. One of the main things is Mary Sue's. It's hypocritical because I had one when I first started writing, but I think it's some established rule for all writers to go through a phase that involves a self-insertment or Mary Sue before they become better at writing.

Do you Role-play online? If so, what?
Nope. I wanted to try, but I've never been good with forum-like things.

Have you ever stolen something from another person's work?
Besides the original creator, no. I admit that some of my ideas have been inspired by the works of others though. But they will never be a copy of another's hard work.

Favorite fandom to write/read?
Favorite fandom...probably Naruto because even though I've stopped following it, I've read it for so long, it's always a fandom I can turn back to when I get bored or lost.

Favorite pairing?
D18. Definitely.

Favorite writer/writers?
Ahh...favorite writers are: Lynn Viehl and Tamora Pierce. I guess Lynn Viehl represents me as a teenager/adult and Tamora Pierce as a child/teenager. My best friend is introducing me to Neil Gaiman though, so I might soon have a new favorite.

How long should a chapter be?
I try to make it over 1000 words at least, and I guess my average is around 2000-3000, but I usually just end it where I think it falls naturally. Of course, I'm quite fond of cliffhangers too :>

Do you write/read drabbles?
I like writing them more than reading, just because I feel that I can't get much of the story out of a drabble. But it's a good exercise for writing so I do it. I'm okay with reading the drabble if it's just a brief humor or fluff though. Makes me feel bubbly inside.

Any fandoms you avoid?
Well...I avoid the fandoms I don't know? And if I hated a fandom...I probably wouldn't get to know it in the first place.

Pairings you avoid?
Oh, lots. Especially if they interfere with with my favorite pairing. The one I avoid the most is 6918.

Warnings you avoid?
I don't really avoid, considering I'm pretty open-minded. I usually notice the warning, then read it to make my own decision. I'll continue if I'm okay with it.

Do the number of reviews tell how good a story is?
I know I should say no, but inside, I know that I would pick a story that has more reviews over less. Of course...I don't get that much reviews either, so I shouldn't be talking.

What do you think of Mary Sues?
I dislike them.

I enjoy OCs that are actually good characters, but I'm not fond of Mary Sues in general.

Have you ever flamed someone?
Of course not. I'd be hurt if I got flamed, so how can I do the same? Of course...I rarely leave reviews too...

Have you ever been flamed?
Yes, the very first story I put up was HXH. I was around 10, so when the person blatantly said my story was "unoriginal," I took down the story and moped for about two years, slowing drifting to other fandoms, reading more to gain experience then posted another story. I'm glad that flame never made me quit FFN all-together though.

Hmm...I'd love to write more...but I have way too much work. Next time, I guess!

The First Words Make the First Impression

I suppose this will be my first post, in which I am supposed to explain - to who? - my reasons for starting this blog. I have experimented with other blogs before, and I was never successful. Partially because I have a lack of commitment, partially because I have qualms about posting personal anecdotes onto the internet, but mainly because I have friends who read my posts. It isn't that I dislike their opinion, but once I know they can read what I write, it becomes less of me chronicling my life, and more of me putting up a barrier, screening what I want to really say, so they'll think differently of me.

So, to be brief, I won't be telling anyone about this blog. Also, I will not reveal any personal information about myself, though I might reflect on my life deeply.

And I wonder who is actually reading this.

Let me introduce myself. I am a seventeen year old girl, currently enrolled in the most competitive high school in New York City, and struggling to maintain my grades, find a meaning in life, and get into college. I don't have many hobbies, most were killed off because of my intense schoolwork. As of now, I do know that I enjoy Japanese-related things, writing fanfiction, and cooking. But I wonder how long these will last.

Writing has always been something enjoyable for me - hence this blog. But my main direction for it is fanfiction, and it is something that I do not proudly tell other people, simply because they tend to turn down their nose when they realize it's oh, fanfiction.

I don't think there is anything wrong with it, and it's something that I can pour my feelings into, and weave it into characters that I have already fallen in love with, and play with them. It is almost like a simulation game (like Harvest Moon, which I really like), except the way you can manipulate everything is limitless.

I feel as if I am about to faint on my bed, thank god it is a Friday. Time to crash. If I remember, I will post again